I never viewed myself as an impatient person. In fact I think I am a very patient person, but I found when it comes to my goals and progress, impatient is exactly the word that I would use to describe myself. I want that instant gratification of seeing my hard work pay off. When I don't see it, I am super quick to throw in the towel and think that it is never going to happen.
I am a visual person. So during this challenge I started keep track of everything. I have spreadsheets of the weights I use, my measurements, how many times I worked out, if I consumed all the water for that day, etc. I figure the more data I have the more I can look back and see where my missteps occurred and in those shining moments where I succeeded.
The last couple of days I have been extremely irritable and on the verge of tears. I am not sure anyone would understand where I am coming from unless they have taken the steps to make some big changes in their lives. Food, exercise, becoming healthy is a big change in my life and I started to get very hard on myself. I was expecting myself to be perfect, work hard and reach my goals in a week...hahaha! DAMN IT! It didn't happen.
I have a huge support system and have learned to lean on those when I get down, while I might not be accepting of their constructive criticism at first, it is always something I continue to reflect on and something I am forever grateful for. One week hasn't gotten me anywhere where I want to be, but looking back at some of my data, talking it over with those I love, I am proud to say I have seen some progress.
Like everything in life, there are going to be days with the highest of highs and the lowest of lows. Some days you will feel like you are on top of the world and other days you will feel that the world just wouldn't care if you didn't exist. There are going to be days when you think your hard work isn't paying off and there are going to be days when all you see is the progress you made.
Take every day in stride. Be patient with yourself and understand that change, even the smallest amount, is something worth celebrating. So whether you've crushed a goal or cried in a corner because you didn't, remember this world is better because of you, not because of those things that you did or didn't do!
Maybe you needed that reminder, I know I certainly did.
Be Kind. Be Love. Be You.
Love to you all;
Shea
Comments